I went and visited SMC yesterday. I thought I would go to SMC, but after it took me over an hour to get their I realized it wasn't practical. So I walked around for half an hour, checked out the library, and left without taking my assessment test. I headed straight for PCC. Its convenient for me because its only fifteen minutes away from home, however, I was dissapointed when I got their. Not necessarily dissapointed with the school, but more so with myself. The campus is a gloomy one, and the people their are generally much less intelligent than the people I've been surrounded with my whole life at Buckley, but before I even noticed any of this I was cursing myself. I told myself, "You should've never been in this mess in the first place. You shouldn't even be driving around the greater Los Angeles area and doing 15 year old, outdated video orientations. YOU SHOULDN'T be taking an assessment and registering at a community college. Look what you've done". I think I'll feel differently after I've registered and have my classes, but as of right now, I am not happy with myself. I never applied myself in high school and never took it seriously. Yes, I am venting right now. But I promised myself that I wouldn't harp on it. I am where I am now, and I need to make the best out of it. I need to finally be a good student. This is my life. This is my future. But this still sucks.
Sorry for the rant,
Yours truly,
Aram
Aram, Don't even be sorry for saying what you feel. You're a smart guy though, and from what I just read it seems like you understand what you have to do, and as long as you have ambition and that drive to push you forward then you'll be able to get where you want in life. 6OBLIN
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